More Confessions from an Online Whore
Although in the beginning of our relationship, sex with my husband was great, it isn’t now, at least not often. He isn’t dominate, creative, kinky or rough. He worries too much about “what I want him to do” and not enough about just fucking me silly. Sometimes he throws in an ass smack or a rough moment, once in a while even a lil’ “dirty talk”, but it usually feels forced and false, which does nothing for me. I need a natural dominant to fuck and use my cunt in the way it is meant to be fucked.
Recently I asked Master to control my sex life with my husband. Part of the reason I want Him to control this aspect of my life is because I desire Master’s dominance in all parts of my life. Another reason is that it just feels good to submit to Him in any way I can and I get off fucking at Masters discretion. It makes me cream just knowing that I am getting fucked this way or that way because Master willed it to be so.
The fact is that my sex life sucks right now. I want need to be physically fucked and used in extreme ways, preferably by my Master, and as that isn’t possible right now, getting fucked at His command is the next best thing.
In the past He has required that I only get fucked in the ass for a week, or that I am to fuck my husband but not cum. I have found that fucking my husband on Masters orders, and in the ways that Master desires makes mundane sex very exciting. It is like He is there in the room with me, telling His whore what to do, egging me on, and encouraging me to let go of my inhibitions (of which I still have a few).
O/our online sessions are intensely satisfying. They often leave me hot, sweaty and with a creaming cunt that aches to be fucked good and proper. Sometimes following a very intense session I’ll ask to fuck my husband. Usually this request is granted, although more than once it has led to my ass getting fucked. I must say that as uncomfortable as butt sex is, it makes me so eager just because I know it is what He wants. The next day I describe to Master (in a very graphic email) how it went down and what the outcome was.
If Master doesn’t give explicit instructions, it is understood that I can fuck and get fucked however and whenever I want. My husband, despite the fact that he isn’t into what I like (we have just grown apart in this respect), is horny ALL the time and I can pretty much have sex whenever I want. Sadly, I want to be told when, where and what to do. I don’t want it to be up to me. I want it to be taken out of my hands. One day I hope that is exactly what will happen. My Master is extreme, RAW, perverse and also always horny, so when W/we are T/together, my cunt will finally get what it deserves and desires!
mickimichele said,
January 18, 2008 at 3:22 pm
Just checking in with you… You have not posted in a while and I wanted to say Hello and see what you have been up to. Take care and write when you can.
Raws bad girl said,
January 18, 2008 at 9:51 pm
Thanks for checking in on me.
I have a major project due at the end of January and Master commanded that I not blog until it is finished. After I turn in my project He said I am free to blog at will (well, kind of at will, He must approve my blogs before I post them). I do have some things to write about, but they will have to wait until I finish my damn project.